There is a new Lunargyros page up today. Also, as we are starting February, this means it is the start of Double Update Month again! More updates on Friday!

Been working a bunch this week, but it's all Stuff That I Can't Share. I wish I could work on more Stuff I Can Share, but the Stuff That I Can't Share has to come first. I know I'm waaaay behind on reindeer story, for one.

Guess I should go ahead and go into why I've been really down a lot lately...


A lot of you already know some of this, but yeah, still worried about finding permanent job things. That's not changed quite that much. But mostly, I'm really worried out my dog.

I've posted watercolors and drawings of Sunshine here and before. But as it is, she's very old now...almost 12 and a half, which is on the old end for a lab, and she's really starting to show her age. She's having a lot of trouble walking since she has arthritis in her legs and back (it's always been a bit tough on her, but she's been exceptionally worse since she got bit by that rattlesnake.) We used to walk her all the way across the street and up the hill twice a day, now we can barely get her across the driveway. She can't (or won't) chew her food; we're having trouble finding some food for her that she'll eat without it kind of slopping everywhere. She still loves to be around people 24/7, but she's more lethargic these days.

And of course all this is leading up to the knowledge that, sooner or later, she'll just get too old and we'll have to put her to sleep. We probably will when she can no longer walk or eat, or if she gets immensely sick. And to be honest, I just can't bear to think about it. It makes me burst into tears whenever I do. I've honestly been crying more this month than I have, like...the entire previous year, trying not to think about it and failing all the time.

And I know that it's just a part of life, that you have to let go of pets sometime, and that it's infinitely better to let her die peacefully than make her suffer. But you guys have to understand...I'm 26, and I've never really lost someone close to me before. With family members, I've only had two great-grandparents die. All my grandparents are still alive (although I'm preparing for it with my grandpa, since he's in the late stages of Alzheimers...kind of the big reason I've been doing more with my grandma lately.) I've never had a really close friend die. When I was a little kid, the only pets we had were fish and hermit crabs. I've never really dealt with death on a personal level, and I...don't know how I'm going to deal with it when it comes. The thought of it just upsets me so much. It's all amplified by my family because they're just as worried/upset as I am.

So...yeah. Sorry for the depressing stuff, but I can't really escape it, and I know it's just going to get worse before it gets better.


Drawing: Movie studies, a site design and a logo design, commish, whatever else I can do

Writing: Trying to get stuff in, mostly just some RP