I have dealt with personal loss before, not really with a pet (although I have to say, I do end up getting a little teary when I find one of my fish floating in the water) but certainly with family members. It is SUPER hard and I wish there was a way I could help you get through it but the only way I can is just to be here and support you. Everyone deals with these things differently. I know my mom and sister who have both lost precious pets before have had difficult times dealing with it.

All I can tell you is what dorkage said, remember the good memories and focus on that. She's old but she's not gone yet and you should enjoy the time you have.

If you ever wanna talk to me about it I'm here for you.