Muh.

I just found out that my great-grandfather (on my mom's side) passes away this morning. I had heard that he had to be taken to the hospital because he was having some extreme fits, to the point where my grandma couldn't take care of him anymore. I was planning to go up with the family on Sunday to see him, since I haven't in...I dunno, many months. But then my mom called and said he'd died this morning, so I'm switching around work a little bit to go up either Wednesday or Thursday...I'm not sure which yet. Whenever the service is.

I feel kinda blank about it...I don't know if I'm sad yet or not, just really really heavy. He was really old as it was...heck, my family was expecting he'd pass away years ago. Mostly I feel bad that I didn't get to see him again before he died. And I don't want to see him again if there's an open-casket funeral; I really can't stand those. My great-grandmother on my dad's side had an open-casket funeral, and I refused to go up there. I'm not sure why; it's not like I'm squeamish, but it just doesn't sit well with me or something.

Mostly, I'm worried for my grandma. She's been going through a lot of crap lately, and now with this on top of it. But maybe she'll feel a little better since the pressure of having to be responsible for her dad is off? I don't really know. It's going to be so awkward in a few days. I think my mom is going up to Bakersfield early, and she told me she was at least planning on going on Sunday still, although I'll have to work on Sunday now because of schedule-switching. At least she could be here for the service before they all left for Italy; I think she was really worried about that.

Speaking of...I really need to go down to the nearest office and get a new passport. For the life of me I can't remember where I put my old one...it's probably with my London stuff, which means it could be buried in any number of places. Glargh, so much to do...

I'll probably post some art later. Feelin' under pressure to be productive here again. :P

Operator status: It's NSO this week, so it's going to be buuuusy, arrgh. And I'll probably end up with the computer without music the entire time, too. Sucks.

Drawing: Started toning the extra page of Lunargyros today. Since the commission's done and so're the pencils for the comic cover, I can work on a bunch of different things.

Writing: Finished a spork last night, plus lots of beta-ing and some working on LW.