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lynxgriffin) wrote2005-05-16 12:22 pm
lynxgriffin) wrote2005-05-16 12:22 pm
The Dangers of Cynicism (BLOGGER 1-7-05)
I'm coming to another out-of-the-blue realization. This realization is that, on the whole, cynicism is very bad for me.
My problem with this is that I *like* cynicism. I like reading cynical writing, and listening to cynical people. In turn, sometimes I try to be just as cynical. But cynicism is like caffiene for me: I'll guzzle it down two or three times a day, but somewhere deep inside me I know that it'll be bad for me in the long run.
Like caffiene, cynicism has some excellent points. For example, cynical people and their comments are usually quite realistic and correct. (They're also usually quite hilarious.) As I am often starry-eyed with my head in the clouds, thinking that life is perfect and people can do me no wrong, a healthy dose of realism keeps my hopes from being dashed like Sonic the Hedgehog upon so many spikes.
The flipside of this is that it gnaws away at some inherent trust in life. Because someone screwed me over, I should never trust them again or someone of their ilk. Because something I did went terribly wrong, I should never try it again. Ultimately people want to use me to suit themselves: bosses, editors, etc., so I should expect nothing different.
This is unhealthy thinking, and I need to stay as far away from it as possible. I want to approach every new opportunity starry-eyed and dreamy, with the belief that nothing can or will possibly go wrong. Thinking this way won't change the situation itself; just my attitude about it.
And yes, I probably will get screwed over more than once in my life and artistic career. People will take advantage of me, turn me down or try to ruin my reputation. And when that happens, I'll wince and move on with my life. Because my life will move on whether I'm with it or not.
Ah, I feel a bit better after writing that down. ^^ I probably will never stop listening to cynical people and cynical statements. But I'll keep trying to constantly remind myself that I can think whatever way I want. And if I want to be painfully, unrealistically optomistic, then I'm damn well going to be! XD
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My problem with this is that I *like* cynicism. I like reading cynical writing, and listening to cynical people. In turn, sometimes I try to be just as cynical. But cynicism is like caffiene for me: I'll guzzle it down two or three times a day, but somewhere deep inside me I know that it'll be bad for me in the long run.
Like caffiene, cynicism has some excellent points. For example, cynical people and their comments are usually quite realistic and correct. (They're also usually quite hilarious.) As I am often starry-eyed with my head in the clouds, thinking that life is perfect and people can do me no wrong, a healthy dose of realism keeps my hopes from being dashed like Sonic the Hedgehog upon so many spikes.
The flipside of this is that it gnaws away at some inherent trust in life. Because someone screwed me over, I should never trust them again or someone of their ilk. Because something I did went terribly wrong, I should never try it again. Ultimately people want to use me to suit themselves: bosses, editors, etc., so I should expect nothing different.
This is unhealthy thinking, and I need to stay as far away from it as possible. I want to approach every new opportunity starry-eyed and dreamy, with the belief that nothing can or will possibly go wrong. Thinking this way won't change the situation itself; just my attitude about it.
And yes, I probably will get screwed over more than once in my life and artistic career. People will take advantage of me, turn me down or try to ruin my reputation. And when that happens, I'll wince and move on with my life. Because my life will move on whether I'm with it or not.
Ah, I feel a bit better after writing that down. ^^ I probably will never stop listening to cynical people and cynical statements. But I'll keep trying to constantly remind myself that I can think whatever way I want. And if I want to be painfully, unrealistically optomistic, then I'm damn well going to be! XD
Operator Status: Busy last night. XP
Other Statuses: Staring up again on reconstruction. Hopefully the class I'm taking on Flash will be very informative.
Drawing: I just can't seem to stop coming up with ideas for Kingdom Hearts fanarts! In the process of two right now...
Writing: Notes on a new story idea I'm developing. I'm also testing out a different way of drawing characters (especially eyes.) It's more "American" than "manga" now, but I think it's a change for the better.